GOTTA PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH

The bottom line is I've had a "for shit" kind of week. Yep, I'm in a majorly pissy mood so this is a whiny blog entry. So sorry, but here's why:

Colby had a rough couple of days at school on Monday and Tuesday, and of course that upset me. SMA bites. Watching him struggle to breathe is just too much to handle sometimes. My heart drops each time I get a call or text from his nurse while they're at school. Yesterday and today were better for him, yay. I went to school with him today and loved every second of it. I try to be more of a nurse/caregiver and less of a mommy on these days, but he's just so darn cute, it's all I can not to ooo and ahhh and kiss all over his sweet face.

I've been having bad headaches and dizziness this week. This bites also. I can't help but think it's thyroid related. I have my 1st appointment with the endocrinologist next week. I'm sure they'll test my levels, or at least they better, because I think my medication needs to be adjusted. I've been doing a little research and wow, it appears your thyroid (or lack of) affects many aspects of your body/health. Fantastic.

So even though it hasn't been the best of times the last few days, I need to stick with my promise and state what I've been thankful for lately. For Monday, it wasn't much, haha. It was a horrible day, rainy, cold, Colby struggled at school and I felt like I had been hit by a bus (really bad dizziness.) The only good thing I can say about Monday is I was thankful I was able to go to bed early. Other than that, it was a sucky day. Tuesday I was thankful to be there for a friend who is going through a rough time (because of a stupid man of course.) She came over and we hung out, ordered pizza, worked on getting my tree up. She thinks I helped her by offering some emotional support, but she helped me, too, by letting me be there for her. I think a lot of times people don't want to tell me their problems because they think I have enough of my own. No, no, no. I want to know what's going on with the people I love and care about. So I'm thankful she came over. Yesterday I was thankful for taking an afternoon nap when Colby was on his bi-pap break. See, told you it's been a rough week. Today I'm thankful Colby had a good day at school. Tired of hearing that damn pulse/ox alarm go off lately.

Tomorrow Colby and I are getting a visit from a dear friend and we can't wait. Company! Love it. I'm making lunch and everything.

Okay, enough of my griping. Just can't help it tonight. Not been the greatest of weeks around here. But things will get better, because I said so. And what Mama says, goes.