Then whammy, yesterday happened. Went to work, just like any
other Wednesday, and my damn computer was down. I could run reports and that's
it. Couldn't adjust my inventory, pack any medications, nothing. I waited
around for 2 hours for them to fix it. It wasn't fixed so I went home. Total
waste of time. Then I get one of those calls I dread so very much. From Apria
of course, who else causes me such grief and annoyance? The old I'm so sorry, but
we will be unable to ship Colby's Neocate Jr. because we're being told by
insurance that Colby's formula is no longer a covered benefit speech. Superdee-duperdee.
I had wine for supper last night, just seemed like the thing to do/have. Don't
judge me. And so it begins, again. Phone call to Cigna to find out exactly WTH
is going on. Phone call to Apria to tell them what Cigna told me. Apria now
needs to bill Colby's secondary insurance. Will do follow up phone call tomorrow.
I'm almost positive this will require more wine. Oh, and little Mr. Jabberpants
has been up since before 6AM today. For a child who is "weak" and
"tires easily" and has "severe respiratory issues" Colby
sure doesn't need extra sleep! But dang, his mama does! I need a nap.
Also, the time has come for me to get my head out of my butt
and face the fact that Colby's VEPTR surgery is indeed going to happen. It's
scheduled for June 11. Actually it's been scheduled since November, I just
haven't wanted to talk about it and/or deal with it in any way. Thinking about
pre-op appointments, the surgery itself, the recovery time, Colby being in
pain/discomfort etc makes me ill. Literally makes my stomach turn and then the
waterworks begin any time I think of it. I would give anything I have now or
will ever have in the future to not put my son through this. I'm usually not a
whiner. I've dealt with the reality of SMA for a long time, and I think I've
dealt with it overall very well. But dammit, I hate this surgery for him. I
HATE IT! I'll admit it, I'm terrified. There, I said it. Luckily there are many
other local SMA kiddos who have had this same surgery by the same surgeon. I'll
be able to better prepare us based on their experiences, advice, etc. I'm going
to call Cincy Ortho Department in the next couple of days and start getting
pre-op appointments scheduled. More wine, please! Much, much more wine.
Time to get in another load of laundry and work out before
Colby gets home from school. Yes, working out. I'm trying to get back into
shape. Not having too much luck, but I am trying. Or maybe I'll have wine for
lunch, then I won't care about working out, or phone calls, or surgeries, or anything else really. Very tempting...
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