I wanted to thank my family and friends
for always being there for Colby and me. And I mean ALWAYS. This has
been an odd year for me. I've had the lowest of lows and the highest
of highs. And one constant has been the unwavering love, support and
care from those closest to us. Please know I see it and feel it.
Please know I appreciate it so much. Please know I don't take it for
granted. Seems like I'm always needing help in various ways. I swear
there are days I don't know whether to scratch my watch or wind my
butt. Lately my dad has been ill, and I've learned the hard way you
can't be two places at once. When I'm with Dad, I feel like I should
be with Colby. Then vice versa, of course. There have been times my
Dad has been really sick, sort of sick, not too sick, doing great,
doing not so great, sick again. Those of you dealing with aging
parents know exactly what I'm talking about. I always thought when
one of my parents starting showing signs of illness and aging, I'd be
able to handle it. After all, look at all I've been through with
Colby, right? Plus having a parent get sick is the more natural
“circle of life” occurrence in life, right? Wrong! It has been
just as hard watching my dad be sick than anything I've experienced
with Colby. I've really had to depend on Colby's nurses to help with
Colby. They've been great. I've had to ask friends to help out with
Dad when there are times I just can't be there. Everyone has stepped
up and been a huge help. Thank you, THANK YOU so much.
This past weekend Colby turned 16. I
can hardly believe it. We had a huge party for Colby, complete with
52 guests, a beautiful 3-tier cake, a great luau theme, excellent
food, and a fire spinner. That's right, there was a young lady in our
driveways spinning fire batons and hoops. Colby's party was one of
the highlights of 2018 for me. I wanted to do something really
special to celebrate his 16th. Again, I needed help, and
my family and friends were more than willing to help. People helped
decorate, bring food, address invitations, run errands, clean up
afterward. Whatever needed to be done for the party got done. I loved
every second of it. I loved celebrating Colby's big birthday! Having
a house full of love and laughter is when I'm at my happiest, for
sure.
I just wanted to take a moment to thank
everyone who has helped us over the last few months. Thank you for
checking on my dad when I can't. Thank you for helping with Colby's
party. Thank you for understanding if I didn't return a call or text,
or if when you talk to me it seems like I wasn't listening. Honestly,
I probably wasn't half the time. I've just had a lot of worries and
to-do lists running around in my brain like squirrels on crack. I'd
like to say my schedule will calm down soon, but I'm afraid that's
not going to happen. A lot of decisions are currently hinging on my
dad's health. Colby is due for his next Spinraza injection in August,
along with getting back to school. I keep telling myself everything
is going to be okay. Take one day, one hour if necessary, at a time.
Prioritize, do what has to be done not necessarily what I want to get
done, accept that I can't be all things to all people all the time,
and just keep chugging along. So, time to watch an episode of OITNB
then go to bed. Tomorrow is Monday and I have the to-do lists ready
to go.
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