I'm in a bad mood. Actually, I'm in a really bad mood. It's 9:00 on a Friday night and I'm thinking very seriously of just going to bed. How sad, lame and pathetic would that make me? I'm thinking I really don't care.
Hard to pinpoint my foul mood. Maybe I've finally gone completely nutsy-fartsy. After all, we do have many good things going on around here. Colby is as healthy as he can be. He's gone almost 8 months without a major hospital stay. Can you say, we love trachs. I should be jumping for joy every dang day for that reason alone! He had a great week at school, and I am grateful for that. Loving our "new" van. Thankful that it came along, really I am. But for some reason, I just can't shake these stressed, overwhelmed, frustrated feelings I've had lately. Maybe it's the letdown after the holidays. Maybe it's dealing with insurance and getting supplies ordered. I have had to deal with that a lot lately, and you know that makes my head spin. If I had known changing Colby's private insurance (Humana to Cigna) was going to be such a large pain in the ass, I certainly wouldn't have done it around the holidays. Nah, my original thought about being nutsy-fartsy is probably the reason why.
I don't know why, but so far my January 2013 has been perfectly yucky. Having some I-can't-handle-all-this-I-need-a-maid-personal assistant-home organizer kind of days. Having a hard time getting things done, which frustrates me to no freakin' end. Maybe I'm just being ridiculous and need to snap out of it. Suck it up and move on, I've been known to say. It would help a lot if I could get some of Colby's stuff resolved. All I can do is tackle it again come Monday morning, which is exactly what I'll do.
Sorry to be such a downer with this update. Next time I blog I'll find something positive or funny to say.
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