COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS, HOURS, MINUTES, SECONDS

So here I sit, doing my "isolation time" now. It's already 48 hours down, 72 hours to go until I can go home to my sweet Colby boy. I can honestly say that yesterday was one of the worst days I've ever had, EVER. I feel fine physically. The only side effect I have from taking the radioactive iodine pill is food has a bit of a metal taste. It was a hard day emotionally. I won't go into all the crappy details. Let's just say there were technical difficulties, misunderstandings, high emotions, lots of crying and cussing on my part, and an overall feeling of I just can't do this, I just can't, can't, won't, won't. But as the saying goes, this too shall pass, and it did. I'm feeling much better today, and now I feel that I can handle the remaining time away from Colby with some bit of sanity and composure. Thank God for my family and friends. My phone was off the hook yesterday with people wanting to listen, talk, help. I'd like to give a shout out THANK YOU to anyone who tolerated me yesterday. I know I was a complete mess.

I was able to Skype with Colby yesterday, which was wonderful. He seemed a bit confused, like hey Mom, what are you doing on this tiny iPad screen, and why are all these other people taking care of me? I think he's feeling a little better. From the reports I'm getting, he's jabbering more and his heart rate has been much better the last couple of days. It's really hard though, because I'm not there to assess him myself. I worry about him lying in the bed too much, not getting stretched out enough, not getting suctioned enough, he's wondering where I am, etc. We just have to hold a 72 more hours, then things can get back to more of a normal routine for us.

I brought plenty of stuff to do during my solitary confinement. I brought a book to read, The Help, and my Bible, too. I have a couple movies to watch. Brought all the dirty clothes from home, so I can get the laundry caught up in the next couple of days. Also have three 500-piece puzzles to do if I want. Had to bring some comforts from home, too. I have my favorite coffee mug, my fuzzy slippers, my computer and iPod, and one of Colby's Spongebob blankets to cuddle with. I drove to a local park today and walked 3 miles. It was freezing-ass cold, but felt good to get out and burn some calories, clear my head, get some fresh air.

I'll wrap this up for now. Colby and I are going to Skype here in the next few minutes. I'm so excited to see that chunky, one-toothed face of his. I miss him so much.